Hee

It was back when I was playing with the guy I meet online . he turned out to be a bit of a schmuck and to be honest playing with him scared me . i had a couple moments with I thought "Damn, he's kinda big -.- He could probably do whatever he wanted and I couldn't stop him .'I got a little panicky and decided not see him again .

I started wishing I had a friends I could call up and play with instead . A friend who I could trust not to hurt me .  A friend who I was sure would stop when I wanted to stop and be gentle with my emotions Please -.- In short , someone who wasn's a schmuck .

I decided to proposition my bestest guy friend . He loves me . H says I'm his favorite person . We talk about everything . He knew about my situation and that I was trying to find a solution . Trouble is , he's a good boy and be's a bit old fashioned .

He turned me down . He said he valued our friendship way too much to fuck it up sleeping with me . He figured I was looking for somthing simply carnal and that would never be enough for him with me . He wasn't going to be just a fuck buddy . We left it at that . So I thought .

We went about our business of being friend . Good friends . Easy friends . He's mooned me via my cell phone and I've sent him a bra shot . It's all been innocent fun . we get to hang out together every couple pf months and keep each other up to date on the latest happenings . He's had two serious girlfriends since , but each one was playfully informed that I will always be his number one .

Im not sure why be changed his mind ? Hmm , maybe it was because both of the girlfriends turned out to be a little crazy and quite careless with is heart . Maybe he wanted to play with someone who he could trust too . For what ever reason , he told me he had reconsidered and confessed to spending a lot pf time wondering kissing me (:

The night we finnaly did something about it was likee any other of our hanging out nights (: I met him at his favorite bar where he could smoke out the patio . We sat and talked for hours the walked out to my ccar to talk more after last call . I couldn't stop thinking about is confession . He must have been thinking about it too , because he couldn't stop smiling at gazing at my lips (: Hee

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