Friend or Foe

I've been questioned by my friends for many times regarding about everything. I would be glad to answer all of their questions, only I find that theres no answer to either any one of them. See, I have friends, plenty. The other day, my English teacher made a remark about me. A good one. She looked at me and said that "Hana has plenty of friends, but very rare close friends". I smiled as the whole class went silent. She wasn't the first to tell me that, I've been told many times before. And its bloody true. I have good reasons for that. I don't pick my friends. I don't. I'm not that picky, people would think I'm just a snobbish type. Well, I'm not. I love the fact of being known by people. Walking on the street and having someone call out your name. But yes, I have very rare close friends. That is a stage which I say, I choose my close friends. People always take me as a hot symbol. The word teenagers use these days to interact with "Idol" or so call "Role-Model". I'm flattered yes, but sometimes having people admire you too much could change into something evil. I'm not making it in a dramatic way. But yes, its scary to have people being close with you, walking next to you to the cafeteria just so people would think that they're one of you. People that befriended me, only wanted the publicity of popularity in websites. People that befriended me just so they could offend me and back stab me right up front. Those people, are not call friends at all. I'm just entertaining them for the sake of giving them the name "School Mates". But no, they're not my friend.

Too many fake friends, with too much agenda's on their plate. I don't really get them, what they have in mind though, trying to make a fool out of me, when they know well eventually they shall fail. But they still do it.
I have girls falling in love with me just recently. It's creepier when they became more obsessive over me. Grabbing my attention by hurting themselves in front of me. Grabbing my attention by lying and just fooling me around. I'm smart in stupid, I'll know even before they wish to lie to me. I've been lied many times before, that's my weak spot as I trust people easily. But even so, once they dip shit me, I'm pissed for life, and no apology would be accepted. I'm writing this now, because I know one day I'll pick a fight with those liars, and there would be plenty of girls I wouldn't mind deleting now. Cause they're not worth keeping as friends. Falling in love with me as a girl, is creepy enough. But lying and creating havoc for my own life. Girl, you have no idea who you're messing with. I never stopped anyone from trying to be my friend. But eventually I stopped being theirs. Girls are a bunch of drama queens. And I have no intention in stepping into their castle. 

They wanna play? I shall play along.

Scream by Hana